April 21, 2011

Amis Pour La Vie

I dedicate this post for my beloved beautiful wonder ladies. We met at high school, yet we had passed so many magnificent memories, the unforgettable ones. I really am thankful for having them in my life. They might not be the best-est people in the world, but they're one of the best buddies I've ever had.


Let me introduce you to them, from left to right; Marilyn, Zipora, Mega, Me, Inneke, Rika, and Cynthia. There's supposed to be one more, but she took the pic, so she couldn't be in the pic, she's Entjek. Later I'll tell you which one. :)


These photos were actually taken on December 2010, last year, when one of our friend, Marilyn was in town, cause she's currently studying in Kangaroo's country. We're having dinner together and having such great time.


I am honestly amazed with the changes that they had done and have been doing. My girls are so beautiful now, they look prettier than when how we were in High school. Yeah, I know that people do change. The surroundings and situation are just some of the reasons. Beside, we're getting older too, we're not only getting old by age, but also by mind and the way we think, so it does affect our way of dressing. Also as starting-to-be grown up ladies, we're getting more aware to what we wear and how do we look and that make us become more lovely than before.




I really miss this moment. I really miss spending time with them, talking and talking and talking, it's like we're always having a lot of things to be talked about and won't run out of topics to be talked about. We talked, we laugh, we cheered the moments, we took bunch of narcissism photos, gossiping, and talked. The point is, we were enjoying our time. I did.


Here she is, the one I've told you before, Entjek, she is the one on the left side. She's kind of the craziest from the others. LOL.

Oh, and about the other girls, allow me to describe'em to you. Alphabetical order:

Cynthia aka Cao : she loves to talk, she always comes up with many stuffs to be talked about, she has funny way of talking too, sometimes she describes things hyperbolically, but that makes the story becomes more alive and truly interesting!

Entjek : the clown in the group. But don't underestimate her, cause she's going to be a pharmacist in the future. She's kind of the bitch here, not in the bad term, bitch I mean she's so hellic funny and always teases Cao by teasing her boyfriend, but of course she's just kidding. She always makes jokes and knows how to liven up the situation.

Inneke : the Doctor soon to be. She's currently studying med. She's also funny and always updated about the latest news around. She really addicted to pink colour, everything she has is mostly in pink, and don't forget the Hello Kitty stuffs.

Marilyn : the future best patisserie chef in the world. Studying in Sydney, loves to cook especially for cakes, but she never gave me any tester from her creation, that's cruel!! hahaha She's the good girl type, eventhough sometime she can be an evil too... =P

Mega : the next interior designer in the designing world, yet the slowest girl in the group. HAHA. We often mock her because sometimes she's kind of slow in absorbing infos or things. Also, she's just like the smallest girl cause she does act like one, that's why we call her as "memeh"

Rika : the future enterpreneur. She's the kind of easy going girl, also the fastest ones to get many latest informations. Really funny girl, I remember how she always having those stupid fights with Inneke. lol. She's also wild too sometimes, she ever bit or pinched people til it left purple-ish bruise..

Zipora : haa, she's the object of public bullying. lol. We often bullied her during high school, many things we've done, screwed up her hair, mock her, and so on. Me, myself, I loved to pluck her long haired hands. hahhaha. She's so bonny and I call her Zimok, which stand for "Zipo semok" ;P

I really miss highschool. I miss the crazy things we've done. I miss the every moment happened during the school time. No matter how boring the subjects were but college life is worse. I wish I could go back and turned the time back to school time, and let it stays there cause I never want to be a colleger. I wish I could be a forever High Schooler. :(

The "NG" moment when Cao vigorously told us about a story. Look at her and the other's expressions. so LMAO.

I laughed so hard and couldn't stop when I saw this pic on my lappy during the pic transfer. Even after a few months afterwards, I still smiled and laughed at this pic. Maybe it's nothing for you, but there's something inside this pic really punch my funny line.

I really miss you all girls.
Wish our friendship will always last, 'til death do us apart.
Friends for life.

Mucho love from me..

April 19, 2011

Dream A Little Dream


There’s one thing made me happy as I woke up this morning. I remembered that I’d just got a dream about my dad again. This is the second time I got dreams about him in the past two days, twice in a row. I was and still am so happy and glad. Eventhough, I know it’s only just a dream.

In my first dream, yesterday, I dream about he and mom, having lunch in a restaurant, then I came and joined them. We ate fish and as usual, Dad always took the head and the tail of the fish. He really liked it. And that was it.. It was only a short simple dream, but that’s enough to make me happy.

Then the second dream I had last night was, there’s somehow a miracle happened. It was in the hospital, my daddy who was sick and comma in ICU room, suddenly awoke and revived again. I came into his room, saw him smiling peacefully to the relatives and the people around and then he saw me, I saw him, and I cried and ran to him, told him I really love him and hugged him tight. He also did the same, he hugged me really tight. He smiled at me, I saw him smiling at me so happily. It’s like he’s also happy to see me again. I really am glad.

Hugging him for one last time has always been my wish for I never got the chance to. I am so glad to have this dream, I’m truly relieved. He has fulfilled my wish, he came into my dream, he hugged me, and I told him I love him. Eventhough it’s only a dream and maybe some people say that dream is only our own imagination or the effect of our subconscious mind, but I don’t care. All I know is I got my daddy came to my dream, I got the chance to hug him, I got the chance to say how much I love him. But there’s also a sad thing about the dream, somehow while I was hugging him, there’s a realization inside me telling me that it was just a dream. I was quite disappointed at that time, cause I then realized that it was too much, it was to good to be true, I realized that my dad has already gone, this couldn’t be true. And that just is. :’(

Another heartbreaking thing happened to me this day is, when I was in my mom’s room, I opened her drawer and saw my daddy’s wallet. I’ve seen it there for some quite of time, but I’ve never touched or even opened it before. The only few times when I opened it is when I asked for money to him, but it was so long long ago.. Then, when I opened it, I directly burst into tears, I couldn’t stand it, couldn’t hold it. The reason was, my daddy, turned out to save my photo inside his wallet. It’s another fact that I’ve never known about him. He saved and kept the photos of his children inside it, my sister’s, my brother’s, and mine. He saved it there and carried it wherever he went. I never knew about this thing, I didn’t even know that he took that photo of mine from me and kept it in his wallet. I was so touched, I cried loudly and I couldn’t stop cause that makes me regret my bad behavior towards him more than ever. I was so bad, I was being such a bad daughter to him, but he still loved me anyway. He carried the photos of his children anywhere as a reminder about his family. He loved us very much. It breaks my heart.

Once, during my elementary time, I’ve ever said to my friends some stuffs about my future husband. I said, one day when I get married, I want a husband just like my dad. The reason I gave them at that time was because my dad could do anything, I told them I want a husband who’s as great and as wonderful as my dad. I want a husband who can do so many many things as my dad. I said. “Yeah, my daddy is so great! He can so do many things, he can fix many broken things. Isn’t he cool? I want a husband like that!” Remembering this thing makes me think again, I never regret saying that to them, instead I’m so proud. I’m so proud that when I was a child I have already realized that my daddy is some kind of great man, super man. I’m so proud to say that. Until now, I still won’t change what I’ve been said. I still want to have a husband as great as my dad, I want to have a husband as hardworking as daddy, I want a husband who’s as caring and always give showers of love to his family, even until his last breath. Until his very last second, he still love every single of us, I believe that. He never hate people, he’s always kind to everyone, he always smiled even to strangers, he cared about his family and his children so much. I want a husband who’s as wonderful, as terrific, as lovely, as impressive as my daddy was.

Love you, daddy.

Une grande partie de l'amour, ta petite fille.


April 16, 2011

Carpe Diem

I’ve been having such a hard time for the past two weeks. The thing I’ve always afraid of and never wanted to happen, in fact, finally happened. I know that you can’t wish for something to be everlasting, ‘cause sooner or later all will be gone, people will leave, things going on, but I just never thought it would happen to me this fast. I never expected it to happen this soon. I never get myself ready for this kind of thing.

You never know how long someone will be there for you, maybe he/she still laughs, talks, and be by your side for a day, then the next day that person suddenly gone away. You never know what will happen tomorrow, either to you yourself or the people around you.

You better say what you need to say, for the best regret is for not uttering the words you always wanted to say. If you love somebody, say it, say it and let that person know. Say it and make your heart relieved. Say it for there’s still time. Say it for there’s still a chance. Say it and have no regret. Tell the people you love that you truly care and love them. Show them how much you love them and stay by their side whenever they need you.

There are times when we might never get the chance to tell what we want to that person. There might be no tomorrow. There might be no more time. For life is such a fragile thing. Don’t ever waste your time.

Don’t be afraid of the respond you get. They might look at you, asking what’s wrong with you, but you don’t need to explain to them. Just keep showing them how much you care and appreciate their presence in your life.

As for me, I didn’t get the chance to tell someone how I really need and love him, ‘cause I never realized how much he meant to me. I often took him for granted, I acted bad, I disappointed him, I made him angry, totally mad, I made him sad, and there’re still so much things I’ve done. I never knew he would meant this much to me ‘til he gone away, gone away and will never ever come back. As he gone, I begin to realize I actually need him, I still need that person to be in my life, to be my guide, to be by my side. He’s the only person who could care for me more than anyone could ever do, he’s the only one who stood by me through whatever and eventhough the world’s against me, he’s still there, still supported me. I made him mad, but no matter how mad he was to me, he would still care for me. He’d still do anything if I needed him. He’d done too much things to me, he’s just like my own hero. I might hate him sometimes and the sad thing was he knew about it, but he didn’t care about it, he never changed, still loved me sincerely no matter how bad I treated him. And I do regret that I didn't tell him I love him. Cause it's too late for me to realize. It's too late for everything..

Many, many times, we don’t realize how much someone means to us until they are gone. And when they’re gone, it’s too late to do anything, cause no matter what you do, they just never go back. So, go tell the people around you that you love them, that you care to them, and that they mean so much to you. There might never be a second chance. Use your time wisely. Tell them.


"The only man who will never break a girl’s heart is her daddy.

The only man a girl can love best is her daddy.

The only man who can be a superhero in a girl’s life is her daddy."

"There will never be a goodbye, there’s only see you later." So, I’ll see you soon, dad. Wait for me, kay?

I loved, love, and will always love you, daddy.

Your little girl miss you so much.


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